Tuesday, March 22, 2011

My Face in that Window


While we were driving home late one Tuesday night I was mentally preparing a schedule for the next day. The funny thing is, I didn’t even realize I was doing it. Well, that is, till I glanced out the window and something caught my eye. It was just for a fraction of a second, but I can still see that little face in the car beside us. A small boy, sitting in the back seat of the car, with his nose and hands pressed flat against his window. And I remembered not too long ago, when that face in the window, those bright eyes, that content little smile, was I.

Feelings came back to me so strong. I remembered this one time, in San Antonio, it was a late night and we were driving home from a friend’s house. I remember sitting in the back of the car staring out the window feeling so… content. The whole family piled into the car. Dad was sitting in the front leading us safely home. The lights passing by the window blurred into one big colorful line. All you hear is the soft sound of the car engine and murmurs from Mom and Dad’s conversation. You had a night full of fun and now it was time for rest. Maybe if you fall asleep in the car Kent will carry you up to bed. You’d wake up to a day of mystery- full of wonder and adventures. But for now, the world is peaceful. You’re protected and nothing can touch you. You don’t even realize when you stop humming ‘Jesus Loves Me’ because you’ve already fallen fast asleep.

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That face in the window… I could see it all there. Why couldn’t life have stayed like that? No worries, no awareness of Hurt and Loneliness and Expectations. Life was so simple and peaceful. Oh, to be that face in the window again.