Friday, October 26, 2012

Fire...(for Lack of a Better Title)


Reading James Joyce in Brit. literature and was compelled to copy his style. Now to see if you guys can get the secret behind the story. :)

He stirred the fire with a stick. It was late afternoon, going on twilight. The red fire of the sky was quickly turning to a pale purple as the sun sank behind the mountains.

His spirits perked as he saw her walking across the field. He nudged the fire harder as a distraction, lifting his eyes in quick little jerks.

She was the minister’s daughter. If asked two weeks ago he would have called her but a child, but something had happened that Sunday of the picnic.

She had been sitting with her friends at the youth table. She must have been taking up some sort of challenge, for when she glanced at him her eyes were bright with excitement. And in that moment, his heart stopped. She smiled demurely, and turned her face away. But he was mesmerized. Bewitched. He found himself studying her. He remembered the crisp green of her dress, and the loose braid that fell across her shoulder.  How had he not noticed those long lashes, the soft curve of her cheek, or the strong tilt of her chin? It was as if that one glance from her had opened a whole new world to him. Suddenly he began seeking her out. And there she would be. In the market place, passing through the street, sitting at the park.

And here she was again. Making her way across the field. What had gotten into him? He was almost twice her age, and had not much interest in love before.

He could not help but watch the way her yellow dress swirled around her ankles and how she clutched it to herself occasionally, keeping it clear from the mud.

He thought of how lovely it would be to have her sitting across from him at his table. He had been rather lonely the past year, had he not?  He noted the light way in which she walked and the gentle swaying of her hips.

Maybe this was just the sort of thing he needed in his life after all- Stability. Excitement. He admired her hair, burning like fire against the sun’s light.

He had yet to speak to her, aside from the polite words here and there, but what did he have to lose? He watched the graceful movement of her hands- those soft, delicate hands- as she brushed her hair out of her eyes.

He would do it! In fact, he was not so old for it to be considered improper. And, he reasoned, she had not seemed dis-comforted when she caught him staring into her eyes. Those deep blue eyes. He could almost see now the delight in them as she raised her head to the sky, her face tilted slightly. He could almost make out the rosy hue of those lips that smiled to the sun.

He broke into a smile, convinced that, yes, he was in love and that yes, he was going to marry this minister’s daughter! By now, she had reached the far corner of the field, and just as she slipped behind the wall, she threw her head over her shoulder, her eyes meeting his.

Although it was for only a second, he could not mis-read the guileful grin that was on her face.

The fire died suddenly and only hot, black coals remained.

Monday, October 22, 2012

Canta Minha Alma

Today I'm falling more in love with Portuguese. Or maybe it's Africa. Or maybe it's music..

I just want to take the opportunity right now-in case you guys do not know, in case I have not said as many times as I should, in case I have not felt it as much I needed to- to say

Thank You, Oh Father, for putting me in Nampula, Mozambique.
Thank You for placing me in this family.
Thank You for surrounding me with Truth.
Thank You for Communao dos Crentes e Cristo.
Thank You for Youth group.
Thank You for UJC.
Thank You for UIFEC.
Thank You for Jermias, Calton, Rosorio and Isma.
Thank You for memories.
And most of all, thank You for showing me Your saving grace.
Thank You for choosing me as Your own.
Thank You, thank You, thank You.

.......Canta Minha Alma.......

Thursday, October 18, 2012

A Space to Call my Own- (a little girl's lesson)

Today I was remembering.....


I guess it all started with the story we read in school.
There was a little boy who lived with his mom and younger siblings in a New York City apartment. This little boy was always surrounded by people, things, activity, movement from here to there. And one day the boy broke down. "I want a space of my own!" So this little boy looked everywhere, just to find a place to be silent. A place to be still.

When I was a kid I was hardly what you'd call the 'quiet type' (I'm sure you can imagine) but something about this story touched me. I don't know what it was. I'm not going to say I was craving stability in my life, that I needed to discover myself, or that after living in one shipping container with my whole family for a year I was having an identity crisis, because only God truly understands the mind of a 6 year old.

But this is what I do know.

I read that story over and over (or rather, gazed at the pictures as my mom read it to me). And pretty soon I started looking for a quiet place for myself. A place that would be mine. A space to call my own.

Needless to say my siblings thought I was crazy. Who was this girl moping about looking for privacy? Surely not Grace the Loud-mouth, the Attention Hog, the one who cried every time her siblings were invited somewhere without her!

And yet here I was- solemnly announcing that I wanted a space of my own. A place by myself.

Here is when my parents showed me how they are the greatest parents in the whole world.

The next morning Dad opened up the back of our old Toyota. Mom put a blanket inside and found a few flowers for decoration. Dad brought out some porridge and toast. They asked if I was alright and I nodded.

And there I sat- eating my breakfast alone- as the rest of my family sat around the table passing around the jam no doubt.

   And it was quiet-

                    And I was happy-

                                  I had a Space of my own.


  After my breakfast, dad came out and asked if I wanted to join them.

And that's when I realized....
                           The best thing about having a space of your own
                                                                                 is choosing to stay with others.


And that was that.

Tuesday, October 16, 2012

Christ in Me

I just got back from our English-speaking/foreigners Youth group (Clay) and was really convicted with the message we heard there.

The actual lesson was about our identity in Christ and how we need to stop measuring ourselves compared to the worlds standards, or our own standards, but see what God says is Truth about who we are in Him. Just to be reminded that my 'goodness' or 'holy status' does not depend on me is so refreshing! That Christ has paid it all...taken my sin and placed in me HIS Righteousness....who am I to doubt the Power of His blood when HE says I am pure? Amazing love, how can it be!

But our youth leader added on at the end a very important note. If we are now In Christ, He should be our identity. Who we are and what we do should reflect Christ.

He brought it home by bringing up our interactions with each other. How am I treating my brothers and sisters in Christ?

He reminded us of the power of Words. Is what I am doing or saying in 'fun' really causing someone pain? Are my interactions with others stemming from my genuine love and compassion for them?

And not just to my brothers and sisters in Christ, but to the world around me! Am I being an example of the same compassion and tenderness that Jesus showed daily as He walked here on this earth? Would someone define me as being Christ-like? But shouldn't I be? Shouldn't we all be who claim to have Him at our core? Not because we are amazing special people in and of ourselves, but because we have an Amazing, Special Power at work within us!

Oh, Christ, make me more like You! Let me disappear as my heart, mind, lips and attitude cry in a united voice: Jesus, Jesus, Jesus, Jesus!

Friday, October 12, 2012

Is the Danger of Loving Worth the Danger of Not?

"To love at all is to be vulnerable. Love anything, and your heart will certainly be wrung and possibly be broken. If you want to make sure of keeping it intact, you must give your heart to no one..Wrap it carefully round with hobbies and little luxuries; avoid all entanglements; lock it up safe in the casket or coffin of your selfishness. But in that casket - safe, dark, motionless, airless - it will change. It will not be broken; It will become unbreakable, impenetrable, irredeemable." - C.S. Lewis

"Lock it up safe in the coffin of your selfishness." 


If you know me or my blog at all this will not be the first time you've heard this thought, but never stated so penetratingly like this. (Thank you, Lewis) Is the danger of loving worth the danger of not? 


Let me just close with another quote:


"What we obtain too cheap, we esteem too lightly.... Heaven knows how to put a proper price upon it's goods." -Thomas Paine

Monday, October 8, 2012

The Wall

I climbed on top of the wall and sat, examining the view before making my choice.
On the right side my family and close friends were calling me, begging me to come over. But on the left, people just kept milling about, ignoring me, as though they didn't care if I went one way or the other.
After a while, I couldn't take it anymore and I called out to the Devil:
 "How come the people on God's side are trying so hard to get me to come over, but your people don't seem to care if I'm on your side or not? Explain this to me!" I demanded.
"Buddy," He grinned, "What you don't understand is that the wall IS my side."


An illustration I heard the other day I wanted to share!